Music Gets the Best of Me

In this, my first positive post in quite some time, I'm going to talk about my crazy old obsession with music. You might have noticed that all of my entries so far, including this, have had some connection to music - be it a song title or a lyric from a song. Music is a very important part of my life and my iPod (Touch) is NEVER away from my side. The raw emotion that I felt on the day I lost my iPod, 2 and a half years ago at the cinema, was the worst pain possible. No word of a lie, it was like losing a limb. At that moment I knew what Heath Ledger felt like at the end of Brokeback Mountain when he was talking to Jake Gyll-blah-blah-blah-haal's coat. Shear pain.

Annnnnnnnnnyway, I've often found that music has been there for me, through both good times and bad. But enough about that - just in case you were wondering what songs I've been alluding to so far in this blog, they are....

"Let the rain fall down, I'm coming clean..." - Come Clean by Hilary Duff
"Everybody's changing and I don't feel the same" - Everybody's Changing by Keane
"It's sad, so sad, it's a sad, sad situation..." - Sorry Seems to Be the Hardest Word by Elton John
"You got the swagger of a champion" - Womanizer by Britney Spears
"Music Gets the Best of Me" - Music Gets the Best of Me by Sophie Ellis-Bextor

But this has to be my all-time favourite song. Listen to the lyrics and you'll know why...
It's Billy Joel with
...
Vienna

You got the swagger of a champion

Don't you just hate jealousy? When somebody else so DESPERATELY craves what you have. It's madness I tell you. I've never been jealous of anybody in my life. Well, there's times when I've thought "God, I really wanted those Spice Girls tickets that she had..." (yes, after 3 posts its all coming out now) but I've always gotten over it pretty quickly and I've never been so resentful as to plot against that person and crave for their possessions.

And this issue isn't about something petty like the aforementioned concert tickets, or even a pair of shoes or a games console.
It's about something much more.

Grr that's really confused me today....

It's sad, so sad, it's a sad, sad situation...

"It's sad when people you know become people you knew, when you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life, how you used to be able to talk for hours now you can barely look at them..." - Henry Rollins

Everybody's changing and I don't feel the same

Why do people grow apart?
Is it fate? The old "nothing lasts forever" clause coming back to bite us in the ass? Or is it consequential; friends grow and friends change and sometimes two people just don't have that buzz anymore. My head chooses the former, but I think my heart takes a deep, albeit unfortunate, drop to the latter. I'm experiencing this with one or two of people now, and it is certainly the cause of alot of my anxiety and grief.

I have one VERY wise friend who says "People don't change, they just become who they are". And you know what? The girl is right. And I have SOOO much admiration for her. Whatever happens she never disrespects herself and stands by her values with dignity and grace. I find that inspirational. I've learnt alot from this person, especially over the last 12 months and for that I am very thankful.
I have another friend who is very similar. She's been through it ALL (and I mean everything) and yet I have NEVER seen her cry. This person makes me laugh every day, and to her I am incredibly thankful.

Both of these are girls....
Hmm I really need to hang out with guys more....